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Tuesday, July 15, 2008


let's put an end to this.

there's no point, being tormented over such a thing.

sometimes, it sucks not having anyone to turn to.
and sometimes, it's even worse when the people you trust turn their backs on you
and come up from behind, with a pretty sharp knife.

damn.

sometimes, it sucks, having to hold everything in yourself
you feel like there's a need to just break down and cry
but then again, you can't do it in front of anyone - you never wanted to
you never wanted to disappoint the people around you
you never wanted to give anyone, the reason to once again mock your life.
you never wanted to look at yourself in your mirror and start laughing again.

so true.

sometimes, it sucks, when you don't have anyone that you can truly trust.
when you, walked alone, from the beginning to the end
when you, stood up alone, time and time again whenever your legs were broken
when you, just felt like telling someone else something, but so afraid of being betrayed
when you, are still alone, all this time, keeping quiet
when you, are totally in pain

it's reality.

sometimes, it sucks, having to complain, having to feel down and upset
but still, you haven't forgotten the countless other people who're just like you
but still, you still have responsibilities, hindering your greatest escape ever.
but still, there's nothing out there left to believe in.

it's how it always will be.

and it's how it will end.

it's a never-ending, never-changing cycle.

emo? no. there's no reason to be emo, nor to call it emo.

it's just life.

so let's put an end to the suffering that you had.
an end to the whining
an end to the tears
an end to the rage
an end to the things that kept pushing you off

or perhaps, an end to the source of all the problems - the air, that i breathe

JONUS - ALONE AS USUAL .

Saturday, July 5, 2008


the folks (wei qing, calvin, keith, louis) came over to DotA overnight. wtf man, because of keith's friend we had to wait 45 minutes so he could join our game, but in the end he didn't -.- otherwise we could have had a 3 v 3 game with ivy. sorry ivy =/

alright. that was 1a.m. this dusk.

REWIND!

the night before. we binged and pigged out at Mos Burger. i had 10 butterfly prawns, a chilli dog. and a large fries. holy hell it was so damn filling that i 'fill that i sinned my stomach'. pun intended xD

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louis and keith are total pigs. MOS CHICKEN AFTER ALL THE STUFF YOU TWO ATE?! ZOMGGG!

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look at all that phat in the chicken man.... sick! @.@

oh yeah. here're some pics from calv's birthday celebration on the 29th of june. 18 bro! more booze for the win!!!

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from the left to right! : zhining, jaslyn, louis, carol & harold, keith(obviously drunk and high) and last but not least joel (back from america to serve NS and seemingly in a total daze)

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seems like keith had a lil too much LOL
from the left to right: keith, joel, calv's bro darren, hong ping and our happy man's girl, jia xin =P

oh, last but not least, BIRTHDAY BOY HIMSELF!
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happy 18th birthday dude (:

Cheers.

JONUS - ALONE AS USUAL .

Friday, July 4, 2008


Sometimes, we make pacts. trades. exchanges.

one gift for another
one companionship for another
one capability for another

and the list goes on...

but, has anyone ever come across a trade?

one life, for the sake of another.

What would you do, in the face of such a question.
Would you exchange your existence for someone to keep on living?

then come the even bigger questions
who is this person? why should i care? how are we related? what about my own damn life?

none of these questions, occurred. not once.
why so? i don't know.
when i asked myself this question. i came across an idea.
if by putting myself down for the sake of one person, wouldn't that create a chain reaction?
if that person keeps on living, who knows how many other people would be able to do the same too!

just because of this one person.

so, now, does it matter who this person is to you? or does it matter more what this person means to others around you?

sure, you can say, what happens if i matter more to the people around me?

i'm just 17. how many people do i really know? haha
and how many of these people actually need my presence or help?
none, zilch.

so i made a pact. a trade
my life. for someone else's
sweet, short, simple.

this person has lived twice my life. i will gladly make this pact
to set me peace
and at the same time plead for this person's safety.

Cheers.

JONUS - ALONE AS USUAL .

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